Saturday, June 15, 2013

Let's be real...

Maybe I shouldn't be writing right now, I don't know. But I feel inspired. It's been a LONG day. I feel like my girls fought, Maverick does his HIGH pitch scream, I yelled, was impatient and annoyed. I did not get everything done that I wanted to. The house looks okay at the moment, but that's rare. I've been wanting to start a new blog now for a while because to be honest, I'm a bit annoyed and beat down by ALL the blogs out there that make life/being a mom look so cute and perfect. Cause I don't know about most of you, but it's not. It's hard, and most days I feel like a failure. I do not get dressed up all cute every day, if I did my house would really be a mess. Cause how do you clean bathrooms and do laundry and clean up dog, pig and chicken poop with your hair curled and your cute bangles on?? Every piece of food my kids eat is not organic, homemade or "clean". I do not wake up before my kids every morning and have a quiet time...although I try. I don't workout. I get annoyed by my children, impatient, give them an attitude and yell. I strive to work on those things daily, but I fail. Day after day. I don't dress them cute  and do their hair all the time. The girls mostly dress themselves and often times choose some very "creative" outfits. Devan rarely gets her hair brushed and you will almost ALWAYS find her face dirty. I have clutter and random stuff all over my house. We have lived in this house 4 1/2 years and I would say that 70% of the house is still not really decorated. I suck at creating and keeping up with a budget.
 Yes, our backdoor is always this dirty, if not more. Yes, Maverick has a green shake all over his face that I did not wipe off before I took him out of his high chair. And even though it's not pictured, it's pretty safe to say I did not wipe down the trey of his high chair either.
 This is the best picture I got of Devan at her Cubbies award ceremony.
 This is what I saw as I looked out the kitchen window while I was making dinner. No, I don't always watch my kids every second.
 

 This guy and his high pitch scream. Words can't even describe how much I can't stand it. I hate loud screaming...The Lord has such a sense of humor.



 This is a typical scene in our house.
Lovely outfit right? And its hard to tell but she has pink hair from chalk that she put in it..a day or 2 ago...
I don't mean for this post to be negative, OR to put any naturally organized super cute crafty they have it all together moms down. I love the blogs that have all the cute pictures and the crafty ideas and recipies  and all. But I wanted to throw a shout out to all of us moms where things like that don't come naturally and let them know they are not alone. There is NOTHING wrong with having a messy house, or loosing your temper and yelling at your kids. It happens...and there's this thing called forgiveness and grace. Not sure where I am going with this now, maybe it's time to stop writing. Being a mom/wife is not always glamorous. I know people don't always want to hear about the negative, or look at blurry pictures of your uniquely dressed, dirty kids but that is what's REAL. This is REAL life folks. Even if this post encourages 1 out of the 2 people who read my blog, then this post has served its purpose. Just trying to keep it real...

5 comments:

  1. amen girl. keep on keeping it real.

    a wise older lady told me at Bible study one time... "the facade of the mom who goes out all the time and does everything and always looks great, you can know something about her, something is suffering. her home, her quiet time, her relationship with her husband, something. you only have so many hours in a day to do all that you need to do, and chances are, if you are busy and putting so much effort in what the world sees, other more important things are suffering." that really hit me, because it is easy to get discouraged in not "doing" all the fun summer events that other moms do, or looking great, or cooking all the time... my kids usually dont have pants on, let alone an outfit ready to go out and do something ;)
    The Lord really humbled me with this pregnancy because good, healthy food sounded NASTY. and cooking... heck no! smells were the worst!!!! And all I wanted to eat was Taco Bell. Like you said, the Lord has a sense of humor! Thanks for being real!
    xo
    julie

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  2. Love this post! Thanks for keeping it real and being so open! Nice to know I'm not the only mommy that loses her cool and yells

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  3. Heellloooo! This is reality Mama, and for those who "don't want to talk about it" are phonies at heart. If one mother says she never yells at her kids, looses her cool, or has a messy house is either a liar, or a member of the junior league club (which means she has a nanny, housekeeper, stylist, chef etc.) I think as Mamas and wives we should write about our daily issues, and what we wrestle with in our hearts. It's the best way to show reassurance to others that life is not perfect, and those broads we compare ourselves with are no better. You're awesome, and this blog is visited by more than two readers. So, keep on writing the truth!

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  4. love this!

    btw, i think i saw you yesterday...were you at the la zoo? i saw a mom who looks like you leaving and a red-haired girl with her amongst a few other girls. was it you??

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  5. Thank you for this post Leanna! I've really been struggling with this BIG time since Lucy was born and, thanks to all the technology and superficial views into other's lives, I've gotten really discouraged thinking I was one of the ONLY ones with a floor that hasn't been cleaned in months, a smelly bathroom, dirty kids, un-showered mama living in her pjs....to name just a few. I KNOW that I'm not the only one but it often feels/appears that way, and Satan just LOVES using those feelings to turn us away from our only source of strength. I want to be the best mama and wife I can but I have to remember that doesn't mean "perfect." Your heart and transparency has been a blessing; "real mamas" unite! :)

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